I listened to a message a few weeks back by Thomas Dexter Jakes, one of my favorite communicators, and the message really hit something in my heart (by hit, I’m metaphorically speaking of a 18-wheeler plowing into a small mini-cooper at 90 miles per hour, but don’t worry, everyone survived). He said, “I used to think that being in the will of God would mean everything was always great. Then I realized that being in the will of God could get you killed.” I’ve heard it a few times before, but I have been stuck on the words of Jesus in the Garden of Gethesemane. “Nevertheless, not my will, but your will be done…” Ahhhhhhhhh so real.
In my heart, I could see that God was preparing me to realize a little more about His love. And I’ll be honest, I wasn’t excited about it. I don’t think Jesus was excited about the cross. I think he was excited about the Father’s plan coming to fruition, but there’s nothing exciting about being broken.
I believe that God wants us healed and whole. I see the truth in that. What I also see is that this doesn’t happen on our time. Healing happens on God’s time. You see God has this little bit of real estate that He resides in called eternity. It’s never-ending and everlasting. It’s in this residence that He chooses to eliminate all brokenness. While on earth, it can be a different story.
Earth. The blue, white, brown, & green sphere that we currently reside (unless you’re in space reading this, in which case, tell Luke Skywalker I said “what up”). The visible realm of touch, smell, feel, taste, & see. That’s our place. This is how we roll. When we are broken, whether it be a physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual brokenness, we immediately want to be healed and whole. As I type this, I find myself in need of some serious healing. The balding douchebag sitting in 17C just reclined his seatback to the point where I’m able to use my chin to hit the spacebar (if you’ve been there, you know).
IF you read the same Bible I read, you probably notice a few things that happen in the New Testament. Some serious stuff went down. Paul had a thorn in his side. That doesn’t sound so painful but I really think it was a bigger deal than we think. He had a THORN! That means Paul had been dealing with rose bushes. That means he tried to give a girl flowers! PAUL’S THORN WAS A WOMAN! #mindblowingrevelation
I’m totally joking. It was just a thorn in his side (maybe even a metaphor). But if I was Paul, runnin around dishin out healings in Jesus name left and right, I’d be a little curious as to why I was praying that I would be healed and it wasn’t happening. Sure I’d be trusting, but I’d definitely be curious. Right up until the moment that I die and then stand before the same guy that appeared to me on a little road in Damascus years before. I’d probably ask him something like, “Yo Jesus! Good to see you and all and we can get to the praise party in a minute, but FOR THE LOVE OF YOU! WHAT WAS UP WITH THE THORN?!”
Jesus, in His patience loving kindness would look down, smile with His sword mouth (read Revelations people!), and He would ask, “What thorn?” Then I’d get all crazy and be like, “this one right here….” As I reached for a thorn that no longer existed. I realized that in that moment I was on heaven’s turf, in the place of God’s full expressed glory. That no sickness, pain, hurt, or confusion would ever be present again. I like to think I would be pretty happy about not having a thorn in my side, but I wouldn’t even notice. Because I’d be enthralled with my beautiful friend & savior, I wouldn’t even acknowledge the thorn was or where it came from.
Healing is all about Jesus. It isn’t about being perfect or whole. It’s about Jesus. Every physical healing is in response to a need for a spiritual healing. I’m not saying that the guy that by him taking the stripes (whiplashing), is no longer able or willing to heal today. He isn’t done bringing glory to the Father. He’s just getting started. I am saying that we need to get our eyes off our pain and onto the one who took all pain so that we may have joy.
Like it’s that easy. The reality is that being in the will of God can include pain (actually it probably will). God uses broken people. People that have experienced pains, both great and small. Not because He’s into that sort of thing, but because He knows that sharing our pain can influence people towards giving God glory. Not because He needs our glory, but because as a good Father, He knows that we need to glorify Him because of what it does in our hearts.
It’s ok to be broken. It’s ok to not have it all together. It’s ok to ask God to heal you. All of these things are highly encouraged. But at the center, it’s more important to keep your heart at a place where it’s focused on giving God the glory He deserves. THAT will heal you. It will grow you. It will help you fall deeper and deeper in love with Him.
There are bunch of ways to do give God glory. One of my favorites is worship & praise. Sing and cry or shout and jump, whichever you choose make it all about Him. I also find writing as a way to give God glory. I get to reflect and think about all that He is and all that He has done when I write (there it is. You got me. This blog is all about giving God glory. Busteddddddd).
What are some of the ways you like to give God glory?